it's the little things

mcdonalds.

after guppies

hahahahahahah sinaaaaaa

bad timingg.

i love these people.

these pictures were taken on the 30th late at night and the 31st early in the morning

the very last one was right after we had taken my sister her cake on her birthday.

happy birthday sis.

studied for the majority of the day.

at night went to diamond jamboree with tiff for coffee

stopped by to talk to ji

havent laughed that hard in a while

good day.

san diego is so beautiful

lunch at some breakfast place in downtown la jolla

the bridge to balboa park

pretty

magician

huge tree

floor at the artist village

sd zoo

house of china

of course house of japan would be missing

from international village

i really wish that everyday could be this relaxing.

dinner at burgerlounge.

one of the best burgers i've ever had hands down.

thanks for showing me just some of what sd has

i can't wait to explore more of the city

i need to start studying

went to turtle rock to film

here we are taking a rest on the way up haha

asian tourist

finally completing filming

top of the world..rock..same thing

good place to visit

PS i still need to finish cloudy with a chance of meatballs

m. came to visit.

ate at buca's

soo fulll

then ate at the balcony for shaved snow

extremely fulllll

saw 'A' there. she's cute haaaa.

ok goodnight noww.

yeah thursday

chinatown

food was mehhh

small group bonding time

played game of things and fishbowl game

it was really good to start laughing and joking with the guys.

hello you.

meet my hippo that i made in education today!!!

he says hullllo.

dinner at gen with june tonight

it was nice to see her face again.

dear life. youre beautiful. and mysterious. and contradicting. but oh how i love you. please continue to show the beauty in people and things. keep the ugly on the downlow if possible. please and thanks.

DearMrJason,

Isn't it nice to start putting your life back together again. to start reaching out to the things that you pushed away. stop pushing. start loving. be the MAN you know you are. youve changed so much but the old person that you miss never left, rather he was just buried under the debris of your ego and pride. dust him off. put him back on his feet. because that's the new you. the old you is the new you. yeah i'm confused too.

where do the days go?

i got my fisheye pictures developed! (:

matt and cade

retreat

jenniferr

little bro

yeahhh sina haha

went to south coast with my sister today

nothing like looking over pictures

with a cup of milk tea from lollicup

inside and staying dry from the rain

so not ready.. hahaha

tired? with no class? pitiful...

two hours of laundry.

sooo much. ):

developed my film

i'll pick up the photos tomorrow! yess!

meeting with vinny and elaine

all wearing rainbows of course.

had lunch with chris today at the hat. good starting conversation. hopefully good conversations to come in the future. then errands. past couple of hours has been for learning kpop dances. hopefully they'll be done in time. kinda scared to teach it since it is my first time and all. i'm sure it'll be fineeeee. off to bed. goodnight.

disneyland!

haha space mountain picture

the second time around..

first time..we got stuck.

we actually saw space mountain nakeddd

owned. (:

i dont know why you took this jenni-boots with the fur.

yogurtland with jennifer after thai spice

i still feel bad about the guy with the beamer ):

sorry guy with the beamer. i was just kiddingg.

lale!

church. shin sen gumi(sp). tastea. disneyland. thai spice. yogurland. im tired. goodnight.

the war continues.

if you can't tell.

these are ants.

and theyve invaded the entire apartment

i watched sina battle them all day haha

relaxing.

so rainy today.

craig and i left for costco and it was pretty sunny

but when we got out it was raining so hard that we got drenched just going to our car

forgot to take my film in

i guess i'll be going back to costco again soon.

other than that. just spent the day learning gee. abracadabra. for pair.

and watched departures. goood movie.

relaxing day. just how i like it.

work tomorrow.

goodnight.

so much.

yeah. there's a lot on my mind right now. so this might be a really long post. so you have two choices. run away now and not read anything and just enjoy my beautiful picture of the rain or you can grab a cup of warm hot chocolate and attempt to figure out just exactly what goes on in this small brain of mine. because i honestly have no idea. this is just rambling. so don't say that i didnt warn you.

first off. i just came back from the mission report for kcm. it was really nice to hear about people's testimonies when they were serving overseas. and secondly it really opened up my eyes to religion outside of my little bubble that i live in. one of the speakers shared about how in China their churches were growing quicker than the ones here. why? because they can't necessarily spread Christianity. it's illegal to evangelize but you are allowed to practice your faith. at first i didnt make a big deal of it. ive heard this all before. but as i continued to think about it the more i realized just how privileged i am to be here where i am now. typing what i want. about God. about anything that i can think up. the people in china can't even do that. the missionaries can't talk about God without using codewords without risk of being thrown in jail. the speaker said we should be praying for our churches instead of theirs because they realize that religion is something that is sacred. that christianity and GOD is something not to just take for granted. i pray that more people in the United States will really think about just how lucky they are in terms of practicing their faith. i'm glad that i have the ability to share about my beliefs however i want. without fear that the government could be tracking me. thank you God. i don't know if You will call me to serve as a missionary, long or short term, but i have the faith to follow you. i will go wherever you call me to.

another thing. i'm sorry. i know that you'll never read this post. but i'm sorry. i feel that my insecurities about myself is whats hindering me from fully understanding everything. i don't think i've ever met someone that has cared about me so much yet doesnt even know me. i think that's the base of a lot of the interest. usually people are after something. maybe you are too. but for now i'm really just enjoying getting to know you better as a person. i think that i really am messed up on the inside. like really messed up. but i feel like throughout everything that i might actually find myself. that all the insecurities will be filled by something else instead of filling it with other people's short lived affection. someday. someday i'll be a grownup. and i'll think of other people over myself. kind of ironic how i always feel like i put other people's needs before mine. how i'm so empathetic. but i know myself better. i do care about people. but i also care for myself through those people too.

and lastly. i'm pretty glad that i went to retreat. i ran into jonathan and aaron on different occasions and struck up a short conversation with them. aaron even walked me down to the bsc where i had to do mail even though he lived in the opposite direction. i didnt recognize jonathan at first because he was wearing a beanie. but i talked with him for a few minutes before he went off to class. the freshman really amaze me. this freshman class is really going to be something special. i pray that they'll continue to have the right heart. they're so friendly and i hope to get to know them so much better.

told you it was a lot of nothingness. but i hope you got something out of it. and to future jason. i hope you feel warmth from this.

i love tim.

he's dreamy with the voice of an angel

so this past week i've been hearing people's amazing talents in music and ive been really inspired to actually pick music back up again. piano. guitar. i'm going to actually practice. get better. and then maybe sing a little bit too. good thing comments are blocked otherwise i might get some nasty harsh remarks. toooo bad. haha.

no but really. i love music. and it's inspiring. and it really moves me. i will make music!

the aftermath.

still unpacking

i'll get there eventually

finally back from retreat

best car ride ever.

stopped at zorbas restaurant on the way back

talk about heartattack in a burger

pastrami on stop of a burger

but it was soo delicious

must go back there.

my little bro was my favorite part of the retreat

elliott shared a lot about himself

and every time he did i was definitely amazed

i'll always remember your letter story

i was truly touched

i couldnt have asked for a better little

sorry if i scared you haha

overall the retreat was really good. a lot of the things that i had been praying about were answered in the form of sermons which made it seem like retreat was specially planned for me. it really made me regret not staying in the EDGE and seeing what it really had to offer me and how much i could have grown in it. but i'm happy where i am. and it was really exciting meeting new people. there are some amazing people in the EDGE that are talented in music. so much more out in the world for me to explore. so many people to get to know. i'm excited.

third day of retreat

collins

glad that you came

joyce

i could hear you laughing everywhere haha

jess

boo to no stars

Tiff and Ji.

thanksss for making me less of a loner hahaaa

these were the people that i spent the most time with at retreat. thanks for hanging out.

i think that this day was my favorite one. i really enjoyed learning about what i means to be a father and man of Christ. Learning from a woman's point of view was really eye opening as well. message came straight from the prodigal son story. always remember to be intentional with your actions and words. care for girls as friends first instead of viewing them as something that is worth pursuing or not. they deserve more than that. Also, remember to be the investing father in the story. neither the saver nor the spender. welcome the son home with open arms. have compassion instead of anger. be a man.