happy halloween

i had work from 12-4. and then slept for two hours. woke up and just dragged myself around the apartment. then went to dinner at cheesecake factory at spectrum with the twins, sina, and doris. the caramel chicken was my choice for dinner and it was orange chicken and then some? haaa. 

came back for drag me to hell. which was the weirdest horror/comedy i've ever seen. period. what was that???? haha. 

not better. just DIFFERENT. 2.0

meeeet shelby < 3 she's my sexier half.

maybe these aren't the RIGHT words for now. 

i'll reword them and produce them in a way that i can be happy with. 

hello memory lane.

i miss you guys so much. you don't even know. i wish the distance didnt affect how much i contacted you. i'm really sorry. but i really do miss you guys and still consider you my close friends. we'll meet up soon i hope. i pray that youre all healthy and happy wherever you are. always remember to keep the faith. 

"koe wo kikasete" BB

one more for the weeeek

you are the one thing that is stopping me from enjoying my halloween weekend. bring it on management. you can't be that bad can you??? hopefully not. ok time to cram. good luck on your own studying endeavors. 

all work and no play. end of story. haha

all this hard work will pay off in the end. right? i mean i'm not wasting all this energy in studying and writing and reading just to end up worse off than those that are cheating their way through college. my efforts won't go unnoticed. will they? i hope not. i hope that in the end everyone will get what they are entitled to. that they shall reap what they sow. or maybe not. maybe this builds character. i mean i was always taught that we don't need to see that fruits of our labor in order to do them. so i guess i'll continue to work hard. because maybe the end result isn't always visible. GOD will reward me in the end. that's all i need. 

"And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out 
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out 
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get 
I Just Haven't Met You Yet" 

-Buble

friends.

this is what work looks like. haha. well the mailroom at work anyway.

lesson of the day: don't base all relationships on each other. every relationship is different and therefore should be treated that way. not everyone is going to be/do the same thing as the person before. i no longer just value those friendships that i have deep conversations with. rather i'm learning to appreciate those friendships that i have in general. i should be happy that i can just enjoy the company of another person. and i do. i'm thankful for friends that put up with my immature ways. 

i fail at sleeping.

it's 3:10 in the morning and for some reason my body will not cooperate with me and just sleep. i finished my paperS at around 2:15 am and yet i rolled around in bed trying to ease myself into a nice slumber. it could be because of the coffee i drank earlier. i guess it had more of an impact on me than i thought it would. so here i am. at 3am blogging about life because my body hates me. at least i didnt skip a day.

picture is from tonight after hanging out with tiff. i've known her since freshman year of college..so it's been about 3+ years now. we've talked about the most random things ever in this time period and i couldnt imagine it being any different. maybe because she's more awkward than when someone says OUT LOUD that a situation is awkward haha. just kiddingg. i know you'll read this eventually. ha. anyway. she's a great friend and sister in Christ and i just wanted to share her with the rest of the world..or the 7 people that follow my blog haha which is basically my world. but yeah...she's pretty cool despite her many lame attempts to be super cool. she's outgoing and friendly which i respect a lot and she's always down to have fun..even in the midst of midterms. together with Ji we make F.A.T. yum i know. i could go on and on about how cool she is but that'd just make her think she was cooler than she is. kidding. she takes jokes well too which is a good thing because she's the butt of a lot of jokes. she's HAMazing. end of story. 

had the GOODBYE conversation today and it was really an on-top-of-a-mountain-weight-off-my-shoulders-good-to-know-i-have-balls-did-i-really-just-accomplish-that-im-proud-of-myself-that-was-incredibly-difficult-finally-its-over-go-jason-go- type of thing. i actually said what i needed to say. i didnt cower in fear or crumble to the idea of regret. the decision is the best for the both of us and i'm glad that we're both MATURE enough to realize that. sometimes letting go and moving on is the best for everyone to heal and to grow stronger. i dont regret anything, rather i'm grateful for those few moments that were shared. i know this isn't THE FINAL goodbye, but it's just a so long for now, see you next next next time goodbye. i hope that you really find what youre looking for in life and that you realize just how smart you are. once you finally realize it, the world better watch out because you'll dominate it. i have faith in you, friend. 

there's probably so much more i want to say about life. but for the sake of losing you as a reader halfway i'll end it here, in hopes that i may fall asleep before class tomorrow..not during. 

arghhh

I CANT WRITE TO SAVE MY LIFE. and it's really frustrating. ah this sucks. picture from dinner at islands. i slept in til 11:30AM. soooo niceee. ahh. i feel so well rested. things look so much better with a well rested mind and body. 

i choose to live.

my heart aches for you. it's hard not to after hearing about everything. i'm sorry that you were going through hell. and i'm sorry that it drove you to the point where you couldnt take it anymore. i PRAY that youre in a better place now and are finally at rest. no more suffering. where everything only brings happiness. your family and friends will be in my prayers. may your soul rest in peace.

to you who reads this blog. i hope that you take the time to think about where you are and what's your relationship to other people. CHERISH those around you. give praise to those that deserve it. if you care about someone. TELL THEM. RIGHT NOW. tell them that you love them and are thankful for them. we all know how much it means to receive praise. yet we rarely give it. let's change that. let's really appreciate each other for everything. big things, small things. ALL THINGS. take the chance now to see how everyone is doing. you could really be doing something that could change someones life. we don't have all the time in the world that we many think. so use it LOVING OTHER PEOPLE.

to you who reads this blog. i'm thankful for you. THANK YOU for everything. thanks for the conversations about life, love, relationships, and everything inbetween. i really do appreciate your friendship even though i don't always show it. i blame it on how i've been raised i guess. but i'm working to change it. but yeah. sorry for the emo post. it's definitely been a wheel-turning-in-my-head day. that's all for nowwwwwwwwwwww.



"Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"says the Lord. On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

ROMANS 12.

MEET SHEENA!

meet sina. he sleeps in the bed next to mine. i've known him since freshman year and i've seen a lot of days/things with this kid.

i really do admire this guy. he gets along with everyone and is always happy. he reminds me of how i used to be in high school. the kid that everyone like to hang out with because it's just fun. no drama. nothing. just good company. i miss that old jason but i think that the person i am now is who/where i'm supposed to be. he plays games all the time but that's what makes him uniquely nerdy. his jokes are borderline racist/sexist/almost barf status, but i can't help but laugh at them anyway. thanks for putting up with my messy ways. and thanks for always turning off the light when i go to sleep even though you stay awake. thanks for being a good roommate and cleaning up the barf after parties all over our bathroom. thanks for the hilarious conversations that we randomly have sometimes before we sleep. ok enough. if he ever reads this he might barf on me. he hates this kind of stuff haha.

at work. and falling asleeeep on a friday night..but i'm updating for yesterday because blogger wouldnt let me post a new blog. i'll post it for last night anyway though. STAY AWAKE PLEASE! :D

drained.

such a long day. class from 9-10. library 10-12. BRANDYWINE from 12-1. class 1-2. midterm 2-3. meeting 4-5:30. pub 6-7:30. jack in the crack 7:30-8:30. 8:30-10 henry's apt. 10-11 run. i'm ready to sleep for about a year. but i have work tomorrow at 10ammmm.

there were so many good conversations throughout the day. from reminiscing on old times with brandon and josh to an intense conversation about God, sin, righteousness, and death with collins, henry, and matt. something is very different about these guys that i've met since freshman year. they've matured so much that it really does amaze me. it makes me wonder if how much i've grown as a person over these last three years. maybe. maybe not. 

i really want to start drawing settings. maybe i'll get a drawing book. ok too tired to type. gooooodnight world. 

study to the max

after i finished my midterm at a little after 9 i walked back to my car through these buildings. part of campus is pretty at night. i never realized that. 

so one midterm down, one more to go. and i guess that i'm not completely useless because i feel like i actually knew what i was doing on my midterm. we'll see for sure tomorrow around noon when i get my score back, but i actually felt like i answered the problems. now onto studying for my one tomorrow..which i havent even started studying for yet..so i think its safe to say that i'm screwed. but my faith still remains. Nathan reminded me today about how God rewards those who are patient. and patient i shall be. 

stolen glance. what should i do. move. can't. blocked. oh well. probably more than you could think. you think too much. maybe another time. no forcing. focus on exam. and after exam. catch up on life. stop putting things off. change starts........... now. 

to the future.

i had this whole philosophical speech about smiling and life. but i forgot what i was going to say. i guess i'll have to explain it later when i remember it. for now just smile. smile because youre young and you have your youth. bad things are only temporary. and if not you'll learn to overcome them eventually. time heals all wounds. 

HAHA

and this just made my day. haha. thanks for the email mom.

ok back to studyingg. 

okokokok

"the look on your face seemed to say

you understood how lonely i was

that look makes you so unforgettable

oh then i wake up and i'm out of my zone

blink twice and then youre gone

is your life as hard for you as mine is for me?

when you feel worn out by this cold, cold world

please hang in there until you find me"

so much for studying

woke up at 11am to eric's nasty face saying how cute i look when i sleep. creepy. then headed off to sam's club with eric, craig and mama schloth. bought a cheesecake..which reminds me that we havent had that tonight for dessert yet. ok scratch that. had the cheesecake for dessert. and it was pretty good. raspberry cheesecake was the best. 

denny's at 1 in the morning. "i hate it when _____ does/doesn't ______"

good laughs haha.

friday night

my view for the next 2 hours and 52 minutes. i have work on a friday night from 8pm-11pm. talk about a downer haha. but hopefully i'm going out tonight with friends afterward. i thought i was going to be really tired after my 9am class. 10-12work. picking up the sis' boyfriend. class at 2. and 5. and work from 8-11. but i'm really down to go have some fun after such an exhausting day.

ps. over you. over it. no looking back. no second chances. this isn't an ultimatum, it's a goodbye.

the new checklist

my new to do list haha. dont be jealous of my random crazy lingo. life's a beeezy right now. but ive never been so busy. it's nice being consumed in things to bury yourself behind. not an emo post. really. haha

get your life back on track

studying is really futile at this point. but i'll try to anyway. such an early onset of senioritis. i've never seen a case this bad before. 

meeting at 6:30. then home to eat. and then hopefully to finish my powerpoint presentation and paper. and i've been up since 8:14am. let's gooooooooooo. 

clean clean clean

no underwear=time to do laundry. i didnt even know that it was this bad until i dumped out the laundry bag. 

rest is exactly what i need.

class is soooo hard to get through now. only a year left. what am i doing with my life after???

had a good talk with tiff today after class about the crap we were going through. i love chats in the car and laughing about how funny people are. also went out to buca tonight for dinner for jennifer's birthday. so full from such good foood. i'm soooooo sleeeeppy. when will i ever gain back all the sleep that i lost so far??? GOD IS GOOD. that's all. 

recap of the weekend.

losing my voice. because too much "creative discussions." at work right now. and it's boring. and no one is coming in to work out. waste haha. i could be sleeping. at least i'm getting paid to not sleep? ionno. rough week ahead. call casey later today please. 

happy birthday karennnnnn!

meet karen. she's quite the good friend. i met her freshman year when she was hanging out with this big white guy in my dorm and we slowly started to get to know each other after shocktober fest that year. she's my korean pop culture friend and gets just as excited as i do when we hear certain korean names or tv shows. she's completely down to earth with a great sense of humor. she's probably one of the only girls that i know that doesnt get scared during scary movies/events. props to her. i know that i can talk to her about anything and i really enjoy laughing and hanging out with her as often as i can. thank you for being there for me and listening to my crap and also putting up with my crap too haha.
this picture is from the end of her birthday celebration on friday. we ate at tokyo table and then migrated back to theh apartment for a small kickback. i had fun. well except for the small drama that came about later. you probably wont remember this in the years later when youre reading this haha.

epiphany day

so this picture comes from right before my roommate eric and i had an intense hour long conversation about people, relationships, jealousy, and life in general. we had about a million epiphanies about how some people aren't as they always seem to be. that everyone can really put up a facade and deceive so many people. i think that this far in my life i've really come to trust what everyone says to me and to really believe that they are being honest about themselves and where theyre coming from but i'm starting to see just how naive i've been. i'm glad that i was a person that just believes the good in everyone but i'm more conscious to the idea that people can and will manipulate the situation to make themselves seem a certain way. crazy but it's just a reality. all people do it. and after really thinking about it i definitely do it too.
anyways, this is eric. he's one of my six roommates. i lived in the same building as him for three years going on four. we get along pretty well and i have a lot of fun dishing all my crap about life to him and all the "troubles" that i may come across during these few years of my college angsty self. if you ever find a friend that won't judge you no matter what you should keep them because no matter the situation they'll have your back and help you out. eric is one of these people. he's cool.

today is october 8th.

meet jennifer. she's a coworker but she's also a close friend.
i've decided to also introduce my friends throughout this blog because they are seriously worth mentioning. so from now on remember all the awesome people that i blog about because they are close to my heart. my friends are pretty amazing and they definitely treat me wayy better than i should be treated. i'm so thankful for good friends in my life that keep me going through all the tough times.
back to the postss. i met up with jennifer today at the vendor fair..and after looking around for a while we ended up playing pool at work. i won 2-1. and the only reason that she won the last one was because i scratched on the eight ball haha. and let's just say that on the second game she still had eight balls still left to knock in.
after playing for a while we made our way to SOUPLANTATIOn. soooooooo gooooooooood. haha we stayed there for two hours talking about relationships, life, baggage, birthdays that were missed, and future things. i'm soo full right now. but i love food so much. haha. ok less than two hours of work left.

a tad late. but still on track! haha

my roommate eric told me it was disgusting but couldnt help but laugh at it. try looking for the asian smiley face hahaha.
this is just one of the few reminders that i shouldnt take life so seriously and that there's always humor in every situation even if we may not exactly see it that way at first. so take my advice. laugh more. life will be more enjoyable that way!

day three. happy birthday hoe gomez.

     so i'm writing the post early today because i wont have time seeing as i have a night class and i have to write a 2pg summary for a 50pg article i havent even started yet. today is joe gomez's 21st birthday. and we celebrated it at TGI Fridays near South Coast Plaza last night. this picture was taken around midnight when he was legally able to purchase his first drink. which was a mai tai. followed by a scooby snack. then a cactus cooler. then a bj. then a cosmo which he couldnt finish. all of this in less than an hour. he didn't barf, what a trooper. haha. 

     i'm really glad that i actually ended up going. josh jenn and jennifer made me realize how much fun life is and how funny people are. i have cool friends. haha

day two..kinda late. but thats ok.

     yesterday was the first day that i started my white strips. i really wanted a before picture to compare to. so this is it. i apologize for the gross photo haha. yesterday i ate a crap load of fast food. i mean like lunch and dinner and then midnight snack kind of thing. so i'm not eating out for a while. home cooked meals is the way to go anyway.

this is the post for yesterday...because i actually took the photo yesterday too.

it's a new day. day one.

ok. so this blog has not been updated because the thoughts in my head arent interesting enough to blog about. i fear that people will actually find out how boring i actually am. 

instead i have decided to create my one picture a day blog instead. i told my roommate Sina that i would start this and so here it goes. day one.

     so this is what craig pointed out to me today after waking up this morning. at first i thought that someone was dripping water across our carpet but after closer look found that it was a small army of ants that had decided to infiltrate our apartment in the search for chicken bones that were located in our garbage can. haha. craig and i then brought out chemical warfare weaponry aka windex (the solution for everything) and brought the score to ANTS 0 : CRAIG and JASON 1. 

    work til 10. omg it's only been two hours.