it's 3:10 in the morning and for some reason my body will not cooperate with me and just sleep. i finished my paperS at around 2:15 am and yet i rolled around in bed trying to ease myself into a nice slumber. it could be because of the coffee i drank earlier. i guess it had more of an impact on me than i thought it would. so here i am. at 3am blogging about life because my body hates me. at least i didnt skip a day. picture is from tonight after hanging out with tiff. i've known her since freshman year of college..so it's been about 3+ years now. we've talked about the most random things ever in this time period and i couldnt imagine it being any different. maybe because she's more awkward than when someone says OUT LOUD that a situation is awkward haha. just kiddingg. i know you'll read this eventually. ha. anyway. she's a great friend and sister in Christ and i just wanted to share her with the rest of the world..or the 7 people that follow my blog haha which is basically my world. but yeah...she's pretty cool despite her many lame attempts to be super cool. she's outgoing and friendly which i respect a lot and she's always down to have fun..even in the midst of midterms. together with Ji we make F.A.T. yum i know. i could go on and on about how cool she is but that'd just make her think she was cooler than she is. kidding. she takes jokes well too which is a good thing because she's the butt of a lot of jokes. she's HAMazing. end of story.
had the GOODBYE conversation today and it was really an on-top-of-a-mountain-weight-off-my-shoulders-good-to-know-i-have-balls-did-i-really-just-accomplish-that-im-proud-of-myself-that-was-incredibly-difficult-finally-its-over-go-jason-go- type of thing. i actually said what i needed to say. i didnt cower in fear or crumble to the idea of regret. the decision is the best for the both of us and i'm glad that we're both MATURE enough to realize that. sometimes letting go and moving on is the best for everyone to heal and to grow stronger. i dont regret anything, rather i'm grateful for those few moments that were shared. i know this isn't THE FINAL goodbye, but it's just a so long for now, see you next next next time goodbye. i hope that you really find what youre looking for in life and that you realize just how smart you are. once you finally realize it, the world better watch out because you'll dominate it. i have faith in you, friend.
there's probably so much more i want to say about life. but for the sake of losing you as a reader halfway i'll end it here, in hopes that i may fall asleep before class tomorrow..not during.
