Thursday, November 12, 2009

im scared.


of everything. what i'm doing right now. where i'm headed. who i'm going to be with. where i'll be one year from TODAY. what will happen with school. what will happen to all the relationships ive made this far.

i really do think about these things from time to time. i think that it's become more and more frequent as graduation comes closer and as i think of leaving this place that ive called home for the past 3+ years. it's definitely been a good run but i think that i can finish even stronger. but that takes effort. i need to pray for the strength and energy to invest in everything/everyone that i need/want to. God knows the troubles and strengths of my heart and i know that i'll be more than happy wherever He takes me. I just have to remember how far that i've come with Him. and i know that the future will always be ahead of me and to stop worrying about it and just live tomorrow. focus on the next step right in front of me instead of becoming fearful of the long winding journey that lies ahead.

"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first HIS kingdom and HIS righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore DO NOT WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:31-34

pictures are from small group tonight. the first one is from the cuties that we drew on for the mens/womens/freshman small groups. I randomly found steven's cutie and it looked like a third grader drew it so i had to take a picture. i think it's blurry from the car driving or from me laughing so hard. the second picture is from making the cards for the groups. we got free tapioca express from the TSA. thanks TSA it was a good surprise gift to top off the night.