thanks for the gift jennifer [:
i dont think i'll ever know. there have been times where i thought i was close to understanding. but then something always happens that snaps me back to reality. if this happened only once to me then i would think it was something beyond my control. but this is something that has happened multiple times throughout my life. so maybe it's me. it's obviously something that i must be doing that's causing this to happen. i think in order to avoid this in the future. i need to check what i'm doing. i can't treat everyone the same. it just doesnt really work out well in the end.
on a happier note. of all the days that i woke up on a sunday morning not feeling like i wanted to go to church. i'm glad that i actually went on a morning like this. jaeson spoke at church today. his words are incredibly powerful and convicting. he's THE most amazing speaker i've heard thus far. his sermon on PRAYER. and actively waiting hit on things that i have been really thinking about lately. the turtle story almost made me cry. and i'll always remember it. and i'll always remember to listen to God in what he's telling me. even if it sounds ridiculous beyond belief. if you fully trust Him then things will always work out. i'm attempting to do the one hour a day thing. starting today!
alright. back to my paper. one more page left! time to finish strong.
